“Sir, the
person writing these novels cannot have any other
intent but to try to help bring down our economic
and political system entirely.” Randy pauses, then
efforts to speak in a tone that shows genuine care
and concern -- though it comes out sounding more
like an amateur actor forcing emotion. In his
heart, he just can’t imagine the System failing,
no matter what. And especially not when he’s just
getting his big shot at taking advantage of some
of its serious largess. No one’s luck is that bad.
And up until now Randy has been very lucky. He
looks up at his Boss, Mack, confidently.
Mack, the director of this brand new government
agency, DISS (Domestic Intelligence Security
Services) looks back at The Big Kid, Randy,
nonplussed.
Randy moves forward to the next act with a stock
play-plead: "Despite all its faults, sir, we know
it is still the Best System."
Randy looks across the hug black desk between him
and Mack expectantly.
"Right," Mack answers flatly, turning away to hide
a yawn. Now that they are in the new millennium,
everyone is so giddily optimistic and paranoid at
the same time. And so modern in their outlook and
language. Gone are the days of referring to things
as American, or Russian, or French. And certainly
no more talk of Communism or Capitalism.
Everything is referred to now in the present or
future tense as belonging to some impersonal state
the lefties call a Global Village and righties
call a Network.
‘And now what?’ Mack thinks to himself, ‘All of
this is going to get debunked by some frazzled,
bum writer of toilet fiction?’
Mack scratches his head. Thoughts are spritzing
around like seltzer fizz. ‘Didn’t two-thirds of
the world’s population -– the daily toilers -- not
even know the date, or care? Or have any fuckin’
time to read?’
Randy sits patiently. The Boss was notorious for –
well, for many things -– but especially for
keeping his thoughts to himself and ruminating
over them for long periods in the middle of
conversations. Sometimes he did this in long dark
silences, and other times in droning murmurs, and
then, rarely, but most unsettling, in a rambling
cacophonous whine.
Rumors had it that this was due to the fact that
he knew so much about everything, and everyone –
the good stuff that could get you destroyed – that
it took preternatural effort on his part not to
let any out until he could use it.
"Stop staring at me like a schoolgirl and go fix
us a drink, will ya please? There's a bar right
behind that black panel next to the cd player.
Make mine just a tomato juice and club soda."
What Randy said earlier about the System zooms
Mack’s attention toward that. He thinks of his
eldest grandchild -- the son of a couple of Ur --
who he is financing to go to a prestigious
University. The kid is actually majoring in
Systems Analysis. ‘The whole world is a System,
Gramp. It doesn't matter what you call it. We just
observe and participate in it, we don't control
it. If anything, whatever system we are in
controls us.'
Mack snafus that belligerently: ‘Lose the control
game, sonny-boy, and you’re out of the money for
your education.’ Below that gut reaction, however,
Mack sort of agrees. The way he almost always ends
up doing with his grandkids anyway.
In fact, Mack
contemplates, nestling a tiny fist beneath several
drooping layers of chin, he had just gone out of
this System about as far as one could and instead
of getting put out or destroyed by it, it engulfed
him and brought him back into itself. And in a way
that made him even more invaluable to it.
Mack feels beads of sweat form on his cool brow
even as he just thinks about it casually. He had
risked his whole career, and his very life, to
help the brother of a Colombian drug trafficker
escape an American jail and return to South
America.
Mack’s glad that things like that just sort of
happened within the course of events. Kept you
from thinking about them while they were
happening. The whole thing took place within a
three-week period about nine months ago. While it
was happening Mack lost all sense of time and
place, like he was in a virtual reality, or on
some kind of natural Prozac that kept you from
losing your shit while you were stressed out of
your mind. But afterward -- geeze -– that was
another story. What a rush.
"Phew!" Mack sounds out, shaking his head in
disbelief. ‘Still can hardly believe I did
that.’ Like someone who survives a
near-fatal heart-attack, Mack is still in the
chary phase of letting only tiny bits and pieces
of the event back into his mind.
Mack looks up and calls out. "Put some Scotch in
my drink. Mostly Scotch, in fact.”
Randy grimaces while mixing the tawny liquid into
the bright red juice, turning it the color and
texture of sodden clay mud. Mack rolls his eyes.
Mack wants to finish off his thoughts about the
Colombian imbroglio before engaging in a
sure-to-be enervating, academic discussion with
The Big Kid, Randy. His new charge, sent to him
directly from the office of The National Security
Administration. ‘Following my most outrageous
escapade to date, they put me into a highly
visible office of power and then send this kid
over here to watch me? And then I suppose one
fine day when I least expect it, they let me
know when their favor of silence is due in.
Maybe. And maybe just new millennium paranoia.’
Mack automatically reaches out for his drink, but
it’s not there. Looks up and sees the back of
Randy’s high rear-end just as he’s entering the
rest room. This single office is more spacious
than anything Mack could have afforded to live in
when he was Randy’s age. Mack resents the
good-looking thoroughbred assigned to his office.
Resents anyone getting something for nothing. He
never did. Put his butt on the line many a time to
get where he is today.
Gets up from behind his desk to fix and get his
own drink.
Mack tries to assure himself that no one knew what
he'd done, or, more importantly, why. He was a
regional director in DEA then, and it was assumed
and expected that when you dealt with the Devil
you became a little like the Devil.
Bottom-line was budget-justifying busts, and Mack
chalked up his share in his way. And the
kidnapping of the brother in Bogotá and his
extradition to jail in the States was in the first
place a CIA-thing that made sense to no one but
them.
Mack takes up the glass of mostly tomato juice,
not Scotch, and downs it. Then pours himself
another one more to his liking and leaves it there
for Randy to bring to him.
Executives had
different ways of assessing employees. This was
Mack’s: was Randy observant enough to notice what
he did; and two, would he remark it, either
verbally, or another way.
Mack walks back slowly, enjoying the light
start-up buzz that first drink of the day just
gave him, and the expansive view of the Potomac
behind his desk. Unlike the other government
security agencies, like the CIA and FBI, this new
office, DISS, is boldly public and up-front about
its mission. The first office ever designated to
overtly fight terrorism within America’s own
borders by its own people. And this brand-new
skyscraper set right in the heart of the nation’s
Capital is the new Administration’s way of saying
that they are not only going to fight domestic
terrorism tooth and nail, but that they are going
to be open about it. Mack hasn’t seen such
balls-out Fuck The Constitution! sentiment since
Ronnie Reagan and his band of half-witted zealots
were dealing drugs to fight an outlaw war in
Central America.
All those other agencies seemed to know how to do
was aggravate the piss out of the world of
dark-skinned people.
Like plucking that Colombian off the streets in
Bogotá and bringing him to an American
jail. The guy was not even in the family’s
business; was slow, sort of the family idiot. A
real prize-catch for the Ivy League Spooks.
Mack shakes his head chagrined. The war was
supposed to be on drugs, not idiots. And Mack’s
proud of the way he used his incident toward that
purpose. The jail-escape coincided, not
accidentally, with a big sensational drug bust at
JFK.
Juts out his chest, though not past his belly.
He’d adroitly kept the media's attention focused
on the long banquet-sized table full of shimmering
white flake rather than one hombre, among more
than two million now in American jails, fleeing.
And true or not, for who knew what really went on
in the hearts and minds of spooks, Mack heard that
the CIA had been taking so much shit about the
kidnapping, that they were actually relieved to
hear the idiot escaped.
Mack sits back down behind his desk waiting for
Randy to return. ‘Must be fixing his makeup,’ he
scoffs impatiently.
Resists the urge to get up and just bring himself
back the whole freagin bottle. He would never have
designed a bar so far away from his desk. Looks
back over the events one more time. Checks and
feels no remorse or moral hangover. The busts were
legit, tons of raw cocaine. And now he has a
substantial amount of money parked offshore for
good purposes -- his own pleasures, first and
foremost, and also for his children’s expensive
rehabs and grandchildren’s educations. At Clinics
and Universities, they would never have been able
to get into without his money and connections. The
Good Life in America did not come cheap. If he has
a moral hangover about anything –- he can’t even
remember where he picked up that inane term – it’s
that he raised such fucked up children. Or failed
to raise them. He repeats his sarcastic Sermon
Under The Mount to himself that he was too busy
busting poor kids and sending them to jail for
doing the same things his kids had been doing
since pre-teen, starting with sniffing goddamn rug
cleaning fluids. Mack was capable of finding some
misdirection on the moral compass around that – he
was at heart a fair fighter – but it would take
more effort than he’s presently capable off. After
so many years of trying to understand and change
things, Mack has simply accepted that the System
does not make sense, is not fair, and will never
be. So, you find your way on your own.
Like with the Colombian he helped to get his
brother out of jail, Alejandro Cabrera. He was
basically a good person in a bad business that he
got into in order to escape a kind of poverty most
North Americans couldn’t even imagine. And
Alejandro really loved his stupid brother and
wanted his family together again. ‘So what the fuck?’
Randy, despite his size, nearly
six-and-a-half-feet tall, moves softly, and comes
back to the desk without Mack hearing or seeing
him. Sits down across from him with a very neat
dry martini pursed in front of himself. Quaint
little olive and all. Pushes the mud-slinger away
from himself and toward Mack.
Mack can’t discern from Randy’s mannerisms if he
noticed or not that the drink had changed. Mack
surmises, that like most kids today, Randy didn’t
notice much outside of himself. ‘He’ll sure make a
super-spook for NSA.’ And that was fine
with Mack.
Grabbing his tumbler-size glass in his fist, Mack
looks over Randy. ‘This Kid is right to be worrying about
the health of this System. Where else could
someone who’s only previous achievement in this
world had been throwing a piece of inflated
pigskin fifty yards get handed a six-figure job
in the nation’s Capital?’